Bully

Today we talked about a kid who was bullied, complained to the school, still got bullied, and killed himself.
This brought me to want to share a few points that I think are important for others to see in me.
Everyone is bullied. Some just may not take it to heart like others do. Sometimes people say thats gay, it dosent hurt, other times it does. Some times I take it to heart, other times I don't. One kid in my class said he dosen't think he has ever really been bullied. I was thinking to myself, you don't need to be bullied really good to be bullied, the fast that he said really leads me ot believe that he has been, or else he would have said it confidently.
Another person was talking about how her dad commited suicide, I'm not sure why, she never told us why. He chose to take his own life, and I feel for her, because it affected her. My mother has cancer my freshman and sophmore years, already the hardest years of highschool right? It affected me, I dealt with it. I didn't kill myself over it though. One kid in our class talked about how he tried to jump off his roof to kill himself. The same year he did that I slit my wrists to see if it still hurt. Looking back I used that as an excuse, see if I could still feel the pain. Now I realise it wasn't that, that was just my excuse, so I wouldn't have to say I tried to kill myself. We all go through something hard, and we all deal with it diffrently, your not special because you went through a hard time. Your special because of who it caused you to become as a person.
When I realise dI liked trannies, it wasn't too big of a deal for me. I told everyone openly. Still saying I liked some normal old boy didn't feel right inside, I felt so akward, I felt ore right telling myself I liked girls. Now I still question myself, but I don't hate myself for not knowing. I hated myself for being confused and questioning myself with no answers before. You shouldn't feel bad for me, I don't feel bad for you. I know your pain, in a diffrent way prehaps, or maybe not, we all share it, it is what makes us humans, and people. We all experiance it diffrently, but the pain comes. It's not unique or special, that you wanted to kill yourself. Many people do. It's not special that your gay, bi, queer, trans, or because of the pain that that caused you. Too many people are that to make it that special, your special because that makes you the person you are right now, today.
I hope you understood my point. If not maybe you will understand it some day.