Bully

Today we talked about a kid who was bullied, complained to the school, still got bullied, and killed himself.
This brought me to want to share a few points that I think are important for others to see in me.
Everyone is bullied. Some just may not take it to heart like others do. Sometimes people say thats gay, it dosent hurt, other times it does. Some times I take it to heart, other times I don't. One kid in my class said he dosen't think he has ever really been bullied. I was thinking to myself, you don't need to be bullied really good to be bullied, the fast that he said really leads me ot believe that he has been, or else he would have said it confidently.
Another person was talking about how her dad commited suicide, I'm not sure why, she never told us why. He chose to take his own life, and I feel for her, because it affected her. My mother has cancer my freshman and sophmore years, already the hardest years of highschool right? It affected me, I dealt with it. I didn't kill myself over it though. One kid in our class talked about how he tried to jump off his roof to kill himself. The same year he did that I slit my wrists to see if it still hurt. Looking back I used that as an excuse, see if I could still feel the pain. Now I realise it wasn't that, that was just my excuse, so I wouldn't have to say I tried to kill myself. We all go through something hard, and we all deal with it diffrently, your not special because you went through a hard time. Your special because of who it caused you to become as a person.
When I realise dI liked trannies, it wasn't too big of a deal for me. I told everyone openly. Still saying I liked some normal old boy didn't feel right inside, I felt so akward, I felt ore right telling myself I liked girls. Now I still question myself, but I don't hate myself for not knowing. I hated myself for being confused and questioning myself with no answers before. You shouldn't feel bad for me, I don't feel bad for you. I know your pain, in a diffrent way prehaps, or maybe not, we all share it, it is what makes us humans, and people. We all experiance it diffrently, but the pain comes. It's not unique or special, that you wanted to kill yourself. Many people do. It's not special that your gay, bi, queer, trans, or because of the pain that that caused you. Too many people are that to make it that special, your special because that makes you the person you are right now, today.
I hope you understood my point. If not maybe you will understand it some day.

What I am.

A lot of people wonder what my orientation is. A lot of people also don't understand when I explain it to them. I will try to tell you simply what I like. I like boys. Normal boys. Straight boys. I also like cross dresser, or transvestite boys. They may call them self woman though, and in that case I like women. Every now and then I will see a girl I like but my feelings for girls are not the same as they are for boys (for some tehy are though). I like most all boys, but I only ever like 1/2 as many girls as boys. Usually I only like girls when I have a serious crush on them. With boys I will have a crush of some for just a few days and others I will have a serious crush on just like I do for girls. I find most all cross dressers attractive, It could be a girl who got a sex change but still likes to dress girly, I like them, boy who changes to a girl and dresses girly, I like them too. I like most all T's in the LGBTQ is what I'm trying to say. Unless its a guy who got a sex change to be a woman, then It would just be the same as how I like woman, only about 1/2 as many as boys, if that makes sense. I guess I'm bad at explaining. Anyway, I know what I like. Some people just think bisexual is the best way to desribe that, to them maybe thats what I am, but only I can define me. I am not bisexual, I am not omnisexual, I am not lesbian or stright, the best word I know of to use to define myself is me, or queer. I will accept being me as being just queer. I think that is all. I just like to be appart of the community, even if I cant't have my own letter. Its ok lol. Bye byes

Zoo Trip

So I went to the San Diego zo with oe of my friends and her friend. It was like fun and stuff, I liked all the animals. I rode on several animals, because thats what I do. Thats really about it. I have a ton more pictures but alof of them have other people in them and I'm not sure if they want to be on my blog of not. I also got a ton of good pictures for refrences for drawing. :)

Prop 8- Fuck it

In my English class I have to do an assignment on a news article of my choice. This morning I chose to write on Prop 8. I read the front page headline blindly, just to get done with my assignment. My English teacher hesitated to tell us about the news in class, he frequently updates us on news from around the world. I sat there I was mad, I had to hear it from someone else so it would set in. I have recently watched some videos I subscribe to on youtube. Now I'm drowning in it. I get to see the protests on TV again. I get to hear the crap from people who are stright but think it matters more to them than to me. They don't know. It's good to have the support don't get me wrong- but why are they so clueless. I don't think I can type any more I need to see what is right. The only thing the news is good for, protests, I get to be in one without being there.

Fuck Horse Isle

Horse Isle can suck my dick. Me saying I'm queer on my profile is not date speek or personal information. Its discrimination. But apparently they accept me but they don't want it there because its date speek. I just don't buy that shit. I can handle the insults, you can call me names, that dosen't matter. Being asked to stop being what I am, I won't take that. I could understand if it sounded like I was looking for someone or was talking about a boy or girl friend, but I wasn't.
Also today I do believe we will find out about Prop 8. Wish me luck.

kahweeyaaah

I have been feeling so assured lately. I know that my life choices are right, because I see the what if paths, and I'm glad I did not take them. I only have 3 more months. I recognise that my parents pay for everything for me and I shouldn't upset them. I can wait and I understand that a relationship now will never be serious, so its not worth it, unless its a norm. I realised that sucking up to my parents isnt being true to myself but I also realise I need to make sacrafices now to enjoy life later. I realise that I have made it through another step in a never ending transition, and looking back I knew nothing. I am so happy about who I am and the decisions I have made, I know what kinds of people to talk to and who will understand. Now I'm hungry and I'm going ot go eat macaroni and cheese. See yah!

Girls!

This is the first time since I've started to blog that I have had a crush on a girl, I'm not all talk about being queer and then never be crushin. She is little, like short and shes cute. I have known her but never really like known her. I really like how she dresses, she has a good sense of fashion. Shes really fun to be around and I just get a good vibe from her. I wish I knew what she liked, but its akward for me to ask people their sexual orientation. I like it better when they tell me. I also went to a thing and saw someone I knew there and we had fun and it was fun then I ate brownies. Yeah lol. Bye

I don't want to sell my horse. I want to give him away. My mom wants me to sell him, because she wants money, because that is all she cares about. Louie could seriously live in my room while I am at school and be happy, he is that good. I wish it was easier to type a horse for sale add, but I just am not sure what to say, my horse knows everything, but no one would believe that. The people who know him know that though. I need to find someone who rides trail and does english pleasure and wants to jump and do some low key stuff for him. He is old and worn so that is why I dont want him to go to another lesson barn though he could do it. I would rather have him eat grass all day and go into retirement than have him go through a lesson barn. But really he is only 13 years old and full of spunk, hes just old because I want him to be old, so people will treat him nicely and not work him untill he is dead. He just needs to be worked for your fun, not because he needs to be schooled. He never needs schooling. Its just frusterating to me, I want him to go somewhere where someone will be happy with him, and know when its ok to ride him and when its not ok to ride him. Because even if you want to he cant be ridden hard every day in a row, he needs fun days and trail days, days where you practice things that are irrelevant to anything, days where you are in hard core show mode. He needs all that, but I dont know anyone who wants to do all that- who dosent have a trainer and wants a free horse. It sucks.

Why I should be vegan

Today I asked one of my vegan friends why I should be vegan, he told me he didnt want to preach to me, and he did a bad job of it when he tried honestly. I then got thinking why would I be vegan, I dont care about the animals feelings so much. I think its a waste to kill something to acess its goods. What it has come down to for me is the environmental impact of it all. I used to care about the animals that kept me vegetarian, then I asked myself why? I realised I didnt care about the animals, I cared about the efficiany, so I have decided I have my reason for being vegan in the next few months. Eating at a lower trophic level is more efficiant. It still all boils down to my selfishness. I could be vegan, I would be good at it. If I wasn't a vegan it would be a waste of me being here I guess in a way. I still haven't figured it all out yet. I will let you know when I do.

Never felt so right

Things feel so right I'm not ever sure how to put it into words. There was this kid I liked alot, but it was just a crush really, it was ok to like him but that was all. I stoped talking to him for a while because I got really busy with school, but then I started to like him again when things got less busy. Now I really like him, I keep smiling uncontrolably when I think of one time that something happened. But I dont want to tell anyone because that would make it less special to me. Its nothing weird, if I said it you would all think it was stupid, but its special to me.
Also I looked of facebook at who was going to prom and who wans't I know its facebook and stuff but I thought this was intresting. This kid I really liked last year, I think he thought I was a lesbian so he just wanted to be friends. Now this year its alot easier for me to talk to him. Thats a very good thing. I don't like him any more but I really used to care about him, now not so much. But I saw that his girl friend isn't going to prom. That makes me think they broke up, an dthat makes me happy, because his girlfriend was a mean little girl to me when we were in girl scouts together. I'm sure she is nice now but I don't care she was mean to me when we were little, so gr. I would go to prom with him but at the same time that would cause alot of drama llama, so I don't know. Yeah, still things never felt so right, even though ife kindof sucks I'm like a million precent sure I like that first guy I talked about. I don't like the 2nd hes just a cool dude. That was lame cool dude lol. Ok whatever see ya bye.

Preakness

Its about 30 min after the race, here is my analysis. Rachel Alexandera deserved to win, and though I wouldn't say she ran HER best, she ran the best fo rthe race. I thought Musket Man ran very well. I think that Mine That Bird did ok, and could have done better, but I really think that he could have won had his jockey made some better choices. It seemed like he was just cantering along in a race where the others were running, and I think that had he been making an effort he too could have had a better spot to challenge the filly.
I got shoes for prom today, they are cute and were priced well too, so happy!
I think thats it for now. Bye!

Prom?

The other day one of my friend wanted to ask me to prom. I could tell and I just told him I was going with friends, because thats what I wanted to do. A few days later he was talking to some girl asking her what to do to ask someone to prom, he didn't use names, I was there, so I knew he was talking about me. I guess he talked to one of my friends who told him that he should make a sign to ask me. I'm trying not to be mad at my friend who told him to do that. Its not that I don't like this kid, hes just really annoying. We went to knotts yesterday SO much fun. He tried to ask me to prom while we were there so not cool.
I went on alot of rides. This kid followed me around the park untill I finally ditched him. Yes I'm mean I dont care, I dont feel guilty or anything. First I stood in line for ghost rider, not worth the line, so I waited of rsilver bullet. I saw a friend in line and cut with them. Then I went on a swing ride that was fun. After that I think we went on la revolucion, and I freaking hated that. Then we went on jaguar. Then we ate some food, went on the log ride, I got wet. After that we went on the calico mine ride thing, thats my favorite ride there lol. we sat in the front of that one ride, I'm drawing a lbank, its fast and its a car ride xcellerator thats it. Then we went on supreme screme, and that was the last ride, we got some food and it was alot of fun. Silver bullet made my head hurt, but I still enjoy it. I enjoy loops, but I prefer non hanging coasters. I want to go on boomerang and that spinning one sierra sidewinder. We didnt go on pony express but I have already been on it many times. I got dippin dots and I fed some birds it was like alot of fun, but my brain hurts. Thats it for now I think ok bye.

Octopuses

I haven't been here in a while mostly because I have been too busy or lazy to come here and talk. Today I took my APES exam, the FRQs were kind of hard and I didn't have enough time on them, but managed to at least pull something out of my ass. Lasy friday I turned in my AP portfolio, that was pretty fun. Right now I'm doing a mini series of octapi, one is green and all you see is faded tentacles and a faded body. The other is pretty awesome I think, its a red giant pacific octopus attacking a narwhal, I know that wouldn't ever happen irl so its cool. I wanted to do the last one attacking the canvas, but its not really working out that way so I will need to search my brain for new ideas. The last 2 days I just sit on the sofa and the next think I know it's dark out. This is bad for me, so I'm trying really hard not to do it and by typing this right now its preventing me from sleeping. My horse has been good and happy, but I haven't ridden him for 2 days so I hope he is OK today. Yesterday I wanted to ride him, but I just slept. Tomorrow I don't go to school until 12:30 that's pretty cool. I want to go out and eat break feast but I'm not sure I want to make plans and arrange for everyone to meet there. Maybe I'll just paint some more octopuses. Also my econ teachers said I was doing below average of my grade report. I have an A in his class, I can't do better than that, and I'm only there to get an A even though I want to major in econ in addition to environmental, he doesn't teach anything he just spits flem on all of his students. If he is going to do a crap job of teaching I'm going to make no effort to try to learn. If he tried and listened to his students input then ?i would try to adapt to his teaching style, but you know what when I talked to him he didn't do anything, he just kept to his own hard headed ness and that's fine with me, maybe he will feel guilty when he dies, shouldn't be too far away. I just did a quick spell check, my typing sucks today oh well.

Candide's Golden Sheep

All the guides for this quest suck. Seriously. I'm going to show you guys how to do it the RIGHT way. I spend 4 hours on this quest, it's not worth it. I will make it easy for you.
You start this quest by talking to Candide on Eldorado Isle. To get to Eldorado you need to talk to Hudson on Turtle, north of the docks "Hi there Hudson, it says that this is Sara's cabin. Where is she?", "Cool, could I see it?", "Thanks!". He has a sister Sara, visit her. That will take you to Bone Isle. Talk to Sara. She will say.. "Hi, I'm kind of busy making strawberry pie, do you want something?", "Do you make pies often?", "Who's this pie for?", "Yes, please!". Talk to Candide on Eldorado. He will tell you this whole big story.. Now comes the sheep finding. If you have finished the King Phil quests you know you need to get food to Grey Slate, who lives in Carroton Rock Shop. Go to Art Isle and get it. Talk to Grey Slate. Go to Hotzeplotz Isle and talk to King Phil. He will tell you that he will trade you the location of the sheep for a snack from the Art Isle inn. Go to Art Isle and collect his snack, as well as 2 more for Grey Slate. Go back to Carroton and talk to Grey Slate again and have him send you to King Phil. Give King Phil his snack, and then go to the north most palm tree on Hotzeplotz Isle beach. Talk to she sheep. He will not go. You need to talk to Candide to find out what the sheep want. Use the directions from before to get to Eldorado Isle. Candide will give you 12 apples, and tell you the sheep like apple treats. Take any apples you find on the ground from the apple tree on Eldorado Isle. Search for some apples in Treeton/Appleton, or buy them in Appleton. You will need 32 apples total. You will also need 4 Horse Candies. Take these to Carroton and craft 4 apple treats. Talk to Grey Slate again to go to Hotzeplotz Isle. Talk to the sheep. It will follow you. Next you will find the sheep on Crescent Isle. To get there talk to the fisherman who lives in Treeton. He can send you to Loch Isle. From there talk to Davey and ask him how to get off the isle. He will send you to Crescent Isle. Look for the sheep there. I found him on the opposite side of the dock south a hair. Once you have found that sheep you need to fin the sheep that lives on Ardent Isle. Go to Treeton and talk to Temperance. She can send you to Mare Isle. When you arrive on Mare isle dig around the north west corner until you find a tunnel. This will transport you to Palm Isle. Take the boat from Palm Isle to Ardent Isle. The sheep is by a two trunked palm near the bottom of the isle. Once you have gotten that sheep go back to Treeton again. You will need to talk to Galvin. Make sure you have done Nina's Bird Woes quest. Go to Galvin's Isle. Talk to him in his Isle house and ask him to send you to Quiet Isle. Search for Rafiki, Forest Wanderer in the forest on Quiet Isle. He will tell you secrets about where the sheep is. Make sure you dig above the pond while you are there too. Go back to Galvin's cabin in Treeton and talk to him. He will tell you to talk to Nina on Tail Isle. Go to Tail Isle and talk to her. Exit her house south and go left to where the path starts. Use your magnifying glass. Go west directly from Nina's cabin. There will be a one trunked palm tree. Go north along the beach to the 3rd palm tree. The sheep will be there. Return to Candide to receive your 400qp and 40k. Please leave me a message if you have any questions!

Try this again.

So I tried to log onto my this thing the other day and I couldn;t rembember my pass word and gave up thinking I would post a blog the next day. The next day I got a migrane, and the ducks won their series against San Jose wooh! Then the otjher day I don't know what was up but yeah finally here I am because I have so many people who read my blog! Today I got into a fist fight with my brother, and its on tape because my mom thought it would be fun to instigate us. Basically I hit my brother with my shoes a few times good on the hands, and then my mom told him to get me back and so he did and I got him pretty good. At one point my mom told me to stop fighting because I was going to hurt myself. She dosen't know anything... I'll be so happy when she is gone I really get along well with my brother but my mom is the one I could live without. Basically my mom asked my brother to study, and he thinks hes all cool and stuff so played on his itouch instead of studying. Then he thought he was a bigger BAMF and turned on that silent ring tone. I asked him nicely to stop 3 times then he started ot laugh at me and made up some story about how I was really the one who plays the ring tone or some lame crap like that. I tried to explain to my mom and she was supporting my brother.. he disobeyed her and me, yet she was still on his side so I decided he needed a good whopping. I'm not a violent person really- I can be but I don't want to get hurt, I love my body, and I don't want to make a stupid decision that will hurt it.

Also theres some swine flu shit going on. Some stupid girl in one of my classes asked what the symptoms of swine flu where. I'm like wow your not very intelligent are you? Its the same as the common flu stop listening to the news. Thats it, I will rant more aobut the swine flu later.

Grasshopper Rescuer

Today in my English class we were talking about animals and what makes them cute. The class agreed that insects and fish aren't cute, but I think that fishes (I don't care if there's no such thing as fishes...) are cute. People said bugs are gross and I said well you all like ladybugs don't you... I think weevils are especially cute too. Then it just so happened that when the bell rang and everyone had left I walked out and spotted a grasshopper close to the ground. I was worried he was going to get stomped, he was old and grey. I tried to scoop him with my hands but that wasn't working then someone passed and told me he was poisonous (ha ha) I finally got him scooped up and relocated to a grass/tree area so at least he wasn't in a high traffic area. He was cute too. My teacher said something about squishing defenseless bugs and I made a comment about babies being like bugs, I guess no one got it. Oh well.

Oprah and my garden

I really don't understand Oprah. She has weird shit on her TV shows . I've never watched her shows until today when I watched a 1/2 of an episode, and it was just weird. I also think that she looks like a poop. Either way, this is just what I think, you shouldn't agree with me. I, aye, eye! Whats going on I don't know. Today I did a horse picture for my art concentration, it looks pretty awesome me thinks. I need to finish 1/4th of a breadth and then do 3 horse pictures, and I need to add a background to the one I just did and I have... until the 4th or something. I don't have a whole lot of time, but I have enough time to finish. Also today my mom was like oh were going to have to take out the pea plants so we can make room for the new cucumber plant I bought. I'm like wtf, the garden can't even hold a freaking cucumber plant, those get enormous. Then I talked her out of it, only to find that she couldn't resist getting 1/2 a dozen cute little baby tomato plants. We have 2 tomato plants already in the ground out there. Now were going to have 6 baby yellow pear, and one heirloom. And there is another out there that we 'don't know what it is'- It's a yellow pear, my mom is in denial. I like big meaty tomatoes, not little dinky pear ones. Also in case you wonder I also have romaine, butter crunch, purple cabbage, strawberries, snap peas, carrots, radishes, beets and a pepper plant out there. I also have 1 very mature radish plant that has flowered and is attraction a plethora of lady bugs :D. My mom bought another pepper plant too, and I'm a little upset because she wants to kill the old one to make room for the new one, but the old one is happy there and it wouldn't be nice to kill it so I tried to convince her to let it live there for a little longer. I think that's it, that was a lot.

Flat Iron

Ten reasons I don't flat iron my hair.
1. It takes too long
2. I don't have time to do it in the morning before I leave
3. I don't have time to do it at night after I shower
4. I can't think of a good number 4 worthy reason to go here
5. It takes a million years for my hair to dry, so even if I did have time to flat iron it, I would be spending that time letting it dry
6. If I want to blow dry my hair, it takes 30 min, and even then its still wet and gets really poofy and scary, this one goes with number 5
7. I can't for the life of me seperate my hair into managable pieces because its so damn thick
8. Once I start to flat iron my hair, I never know when to stop so I spend 2 hours doing it
9. Even after I flat iron my hair theres always some section that is wavey and dosen't match
10. When I do flat iron my hair people like to touch it because its something diffrent to them, and then it gets all gross
Now with my new hair cut I look scary with its natural waves, and the Mr. Bangel Monsters don't like it either. Mr. Bangel Monsters is the name of my bangs. My friend picked out that name, because I couldn't think of a worthy name for them that wasn't already like fred, or bob or something like that. I wish I could call them steve, but I already have a thing named steve. Yes!

5AG

I'm sad that this week is over on 5AG, I really loved this weeks theme. I was kind of thinking nothing could top lesbian week, then this did it. I'd like to see them do this theme again but instead of doing the day before them, do the day after them. Also my mom found this video about UCSC that I thought was really funny and I'm like super excited to go there. Have I said I filled out everything I needed to, and I'm like for sure going there? Well I am. Today I learned if you burn soil your left with rocks at the bottom, since most of soil is organic compounds. Yay! I also also broke in my new boots today and my feet want to kill me right now. My bangs were fun, ok see you later!

Bangs

I got some bangs today, I'm really happy with them. I like them alot alot. I want to name them but I acn't think of any really good names for them, and it HAS to be a good name. Hopscotch keeps saying it wants me to type it, I'm not sure why. I found out its harder to brush your teeth with bangs because you can't see anything really, but other than that, they are just really quite fun. I got my hair re-styled also and its so cool looking. Also the Ducks beat San Jose today, that was nice, Hiller did an awesome job, I think he deservs props. It's kindof late right now so I'm most forsurely not spelling things right and I don't feel like seeing how badly I spelled them so yo uwill have to cope. Tomorow for breakfeast I get oatmeal, I love steel cut oats, they are chewie and good. My rice cooker also cooks oats, so in the morning when they are done it plays like mary had a little lamb and stuff, its cool. Ok, bye!

Peach Juice?

Right now I have peach juice. The ingredient list says it's make of pear, pineapple, and peach. It's orange. It tasted like peach juice until I read the ingredients. Now it tastes like pineapple with peach pulp in it. Wow I just watched a million YouTube videos and forgot about this blog. Hm, I shaved my horses whiskers today, he was a hairy man. I get to maybe take him with me to college. Hey there that was the first like italic I have used when posting something, I never use bolds or italics or underlines, I never really feel the need to get a point across extra well, what am I saying, why have I been talking to myself so much lately, one of my teachers says I have anxiety and that's why I twitch my neck every now and then, that makes sense. I guess. Ok, bye!

I talk to myself and I think its O.K.

Today there was a person with green hair in my free period class, and it confused me. I wanted to know who they are, because I know a lot of people, but who they were I did not know. Also today I rode my horse and he is better and not as lame as he was before he should be good to jump in 2 days. Tomorrow I get to sleep in and today I get to eat biscuits for dinner. I really have to pee right now, but sometimes I like the feeling of having to pee so I keep it in (I wonder what that means..) I have been watching YouTube videos. My new favorite person is http://www.youtube.com/user/tenthingsqueer you should subscribe too. Maybe some day I will vlog with all my cool friends that I assume I will have when I am in college. Now I am going to see if anyone is on AIM because this is not amusing me as much as I thought it would, and we all know I'm talking to myself. Bye!
I swear the more you talk to yourself the healthier of a person you are.

Oh and also, my screen name on some places is Lawnbeaver and recently I've been wanting to tell everyone I'm a sad beaver, but like I can't say that in public so it makes me more sad. I'm a sad beaver.

UCSC

I went up to UCSC over my break, that's why I wasn't here. I'm going to school there, I'v sent it everything they need to know from me. I've put Porter down as my first, then Kresge, 8, 9, and Cowell last. I have a friend whos going there so I won't be alone, plus I really don't want to be a loner, I'm going double or triple. When I was there our tour guide wouldn't tell us about First Rain, but I grabbed a student who told all intrested about it. That's me, I'm going to be doing that for sure. Aslo of the trip back home I saw alpaca, and when I passed cows that were close to the road I opened my window and screamed at the, to see what ones would look, that's entertaining try it. Since then alot of other stuff has happened, like that camera I blogged for, I won one of the 2, awesomeness- you can expect pictures. But really, who will be expecting them, I don't think anyone even knows of my blog.. lol.

Ponybox.com Review

So, I'm doing this review of Ponybox to apply for one of 2 Sony Cyber-Shot Digital Cameras that are being given away. Here's my review. I think Ponybox.com is an awesome sim game, but aren't they all? Ponybox.com has a great forum that is kid and family friendly like most horse sims. One thing that is especially interesting about Ponybox.com is the different themed servers. I found it especially easy to join and become a part of the community from the first post I made, there wasn't any struggle to become popular, or and extra effort to be recognised. At first I though I would hate how the game progresses in real life time, instead of game play time, and while it still can be annoying when you leave on trips or are grounded from the computer, it's really not that bad. I'm not just saying it's not that bad, I really mean it, it allows me to play for as long or as short of a time as I want to each day, and the set up of the game is really convenient for people who only have a minute to hop on each day to preform their daily jobs. If you can't get online to care for your horses you don't need to worry about them dying from lack of food or care, or worry about them being taken away from you either. They may be in poor condition when you check on them, but they will not have disappeared. The one thing that is the most outstanding thing about Ponybox.com is the active staff. Really, if you have played any other sim games you know that after a few months of them being brand new the creator goes off and makes a new sim and leaves the old one for the rats. Ponybox is the complete opposite. Jeff Ness, the CEO and founder of Ponybox LLC has his own blog ( http://myhoof.com/ ) where he keeps players up to date on new contests (like this one), merchandise, and game updates. You wouldn't go a day without hearing of some crazy new idea he has for Ponybox.com.
Still Ponybox has a few flaws, like waiting 20 days to have your 'stud account' upgraded to access all the features. Sure you can pay the extra money for instant gratification, but if you don't even know if your going to like the game why would you pay up? Seriously this review is getting ridiculously long, waiting 20 days might seem like forever, but in reality its over quick, and gets you introduced to the game so your not completely confused when you first start. Other than these things Ponybox is a horse sim game, own, feed, breed, show, all the stuff any horse sim should have. Plus on top of that is has features for every type of member. If your an artist like myself there is a sister site to upload your work, if your a writer you can join the Creative Writing group, or if you just want to show off your horse then you can put up pictures on the About Me part of your profile. At first I though I was going to write a negative review, because that's what I'm best at... I think, but right now I can't think of anything seriously bad about Ponybox.com. As I'm comparing it to other sims I play or once played its the best, bottom line.

This one dosen't like me

For some reason this blog never posted. Anyway, basically one of my friends gets kicked out as soon as he turns 18, and I put on a whole show for my mom so he can live at our house for a little big, and she said yes. So, I hope he will never have anywhere not to stay so he has to stay at my house, but it's always avalible for him. That's really it, well theres more but I already typed it like 5 times and it never posted! So this is it.

RAVE!

Today the only eventful thing that happened was talking about raves. I think it would be fun to go to one, I've never been to one. I asked my mom is she would be mad if I went to one, she didn't exactly say no, but she didn't say she would be happy for me to go to one either. Basically people were surprised that I knew as much as I did about raves, then like 5 people asked me if I raved. No, I'm a rave virgin. Anyway I think that's on my to do list. Go to a rave, yup, it would sound easy seeing as almost all of my friend rave all the time, but despite the fact that they are friends they are also awkward to talk to... I don't know how that happened, awkward to talk to friends. That's about it, today was booooring. Soon I will eat a potato taco, that will be more eventful than the entire rest of my day combined.

Cute Cupcakes!

I have some lingo that I've been using lately. I'd like to tell you about it. One think I like to say is 'See you round town!', or 'See you round T toowwn', T town is a nickname for my school, and yeah it's just fun to say. I also like to say 'I adore (Persons Name Here)', and that means I kinda maybe have a crush on them, but I'm not comfortable enough to just say I have a crush on (Persons Name Here), or I don't want someone to know, because I would rather tell the person I like to their face then have that whole he said she said thing. Another thing I don't say, but that I use in IM a lot is 'Your a cute cupcake' or 'He's a cute cupcake' or 'He's/Your as cute as a cupcake'. I'm pretty sure this came from 5awesomegays, and I'm like 97% sure it was Korey who said something was cuter than strawberries, then my friend started saying that, then I made cupcakes for my friend for her birthday, then it just turned into this thing. Also, only some people are cut enough to be referenced to cupcakes.
Other than that I went to the mall and the food court there is scary. It's on the 2nd floor and the ground shakes, it freaks me out each time. I wonder how thick the ground is in there because when a little kid walks by it shakes the ground enough to feel it. I get really afraid when I eat there, or just walk through in general. So I though it would be fun to see how much the ground could shake, right..? I walked away from my table and jumped up and down really hard and the table started to shake and the drink started to splash around. I think the floor is like 2 feet thick, and it shakes and holds up over weight people who walk around the mall though. Anyway when I did that just about everyone in the food court started to stare, but like what some girl jumping up and down isn't that odd to see- get over it people. I don't stare when people do something strange I join in, usually.

Horse Isle

I play this game called Horse Isle. It's a pretty fun game but also pretty annoying. The horse graphics are phenomenal, though some of them, you almost wonder what the artist was thinking, because they are over exaggerated. It's a game where you do quests and buy trade sell horses and other items. You can do competitions and stuff as well. I think this game is best for kids between the ages of 3rd grade and 6th grade. Littler kids will have too hard of a time doing quests and older kids will be wondering why the game filters out the word poop. I wonder that, I also wonder why it filters out god, and gay. Not everyone uses the word gay in a derogative way, and I use that word a lot, in a non derogative way, and it's frustrating when I'm trying to talk with my friends who play that game about anything that involves the word gay, because I can't and I have to use a different chat and hop between the two, that's very annoying but I'm sure we all know that. I'm not sure why I keep paying to play a game I hate so much, but I still think it's fun to check out. You also don't have to pay you just get better perks if you do pay. Anyway if you want to check it out go here and give me referral points!
http://www.horseisle.com/?R=Lawnbeaver
Also spell check says derogative is spelled wrong, but it's not.. is it?

Little Kids Clothing & Money

So I applied for a scholarship, and I got $2,500 WOO! The money wasn't so exciting, but the congratulations paper they gave me was all professional and awesome.
Also I really like little kids clothes. I am pretty tall in case you don't know, I am 5'9ish, and I love to wear little kids clothes, so where they still fit, it's just that the arms come up about 1/2 way on a long sleeve sweater, and my tummy always shows. I'm not sure why I like to wear little kids clothes, but I don't think I'm the only one. One of my friends likes to dress like a little kid, but shes little and looks normal in little kids clothes, like clothes from Gymboree. I get really jealous that I can wear light up sneakers any more, am I the only one who wishes they could still do these things?
Also this blog is yesterdays, I had it all typed out, and I just forgot to click the little publish button, so I'm stupid I guess.

Money and Little Kids Clothes

So I applied for a scholarship, and I got $2,500 WOO! The money wasn't so exciting, but the congradulations paper they gave me was all professional and awesome.

Also I really like little kids clothes. I am pretty tall incase you don't know, I am 5'9ish, and I love to wear little kids clothes, so where they still fit be around, they show my tummy


Also, right now it's 4/13/09, and I realise dI must have never published this blog, so I will now, and in addition to that, I rembember why I probably never got around to doing that. I typed this blog 3 times and each time it got deleted, and so I got fed up, but here it is now! It's not that exciting other than I feel like I'm talking to myself!

Tanning

Let me tell you, a lot of people have been tanning lately. One of my friends went tanning and looked so fine, he told me I should go, but ya know, I didn't take him too seriously. Still it got me thinking, I've been working on my pale, because I don't match, maybe I could just even it out with a tan? So my other friend told me that she was going to go tanning today, and I told her I thought tanning was scary, because it does seem pretty scary, doesn't it? She told me she thought it was scary too, then we went into the whole deal about how neither of us had been tanning. She seriously wanted me to tan with her, but I was concerned my skin would get some type of cancer from tanning. I asked my teacher if it would be O.K. to go tanning for 10 minutes or if I would die, because ya know, a lot of things can kill you. He said I should go but just don't turn on the lights and I would be fine. My friend said that she didn't think I wanted to pay $15 or however much it costs to tan to just go tanning with her and have the lights in the bed turned off. She said she would call me to go tanning with her, guess what I never got a call. I seriously thought she was going to call me to go tanning with her, maybe I would have if she talked me into it, but hey she never called, whatever!
Also Alfonzo officially gets to come live at my house over spring break, I'm excited, hes so cute, when I peep at him he peeps back and he follows my hand all around his little Tupperware bin that he lives in. Plus it's not like I'll be doing anything else exciting over the break, except driving up to Nor Cal to look at schools, that's usually moderately fun though.

Alfonzo & Greensburg

So today I'm convinced I taught Alfonzo where the food dish is. I went in there and he was kind of hobbling around, only one of his eyes was open. I peeped at him, because that's what I do, I peep at him, and he peeps back so I'm convinced it works. I put some food in my finger then he pecked it off, and then I used my finger like a beak and pecked in the food bowl. Little Alfonzo followed my finger into the bowl and started pecking with me. He did that a few different times. Now he needs to learn how to use the water dish because right now hes being force fed water.
Now about Greensburg...
So, Greensburg has it's own T.V. show on Discovery's Planet Green, basically about how the city of Greensburg rebuilds green after a tornado hits. I really don't understand why the people who live there don't get it. A tornado hit you, go move somewhere else. Please do not go on your little T.V. show and cry about how your home was destroyed. You chose to live right smack dab in the middle of tornado alley, you should be expecting tornadoes all the time, especially during tornado season. The shit they put on T.V., it doesn't help that none of them know anything about being green, but I suspect it should be good that they are learning about it, they can make a difference right? Well not really, because you see, their homes are destroyed, and then they rebuild green, they might be smart enough to build green, but sure aren't smart enough to do the easiest thing... move where there are no tornadoes to destroy your effin house. I live on a fault, there are earthquakes. I expect them, I'm thinking about when the next one will occur constantly. We get them about as frequently as tornado alley gets a tornado that can do damage. The difference is, we only get an earthquake big enough to destroy a home every 10, 15, or more years, people will remodel by then anyway. Greensburg gets hit quite a bit, by big tornadoes from what I've seen. More frequently than houses should be remodeled. Yeah so basically Greensburg is a waste of time, energy, and a waste of human lives. Those people could be doing real work instead of just sitting around farming and waiting for the next tornado.
Yeah, blah blah, I could be eating the crops they harvest blah blah blah.... But not really.

Chicken

In my science class we have been hatching chicken eggs. The first batch of 30 eggs didn't go so well, 1/2 never developed, and 3 hatched. So my teacher ordered another batch, and they were going to hatch on Monday, but didn't, I was angry at them. On Monday one poked a hole in it's shell, but after that it didn't try to break out for 2 days, I was convinced it was dead. Today I checked on it and it's shell was cracked open a lot, I was really excited, because I had been watching these damn things for 3 weeks and finally I got to see one hatching. At the end of the class a few people and myself just watched the little chick work his way out, and eventually he made it out. I really didn't want to go to my next class, but I had to, during that time I came up with the name Alfonzo, I thought it was fitting, I bet he will grow up to be a she. Anyway, went back to check on Alfonzo later to find him cuddled up against the other eggs that didn't hatch. Whenever you peep at him he peeps back, so I just stayed there for 30 minutes having a nice conversation. I'm not sure what I said, but I think he was saying something along the lines of "What the hell is this Styrofoam container I am in, where the fuck is my mom, and where are my brothers and sister?"

PonyBox, Back in Business

Today I started to play PonyBox again. It's a pretty fun game I'd check it out if you have the opportunity. I play on all servers, but Pegasus is my home server. It's a great kids game, and a great game for grown ups too, it's not like some of those other games that ignorant teenagers play. Anyway, there's fun groups on there to talk about anything that may interest you, and if there isn't something on there that interests you, contact the admin, they love to get good game ideas! One negative to PonyBox is that days pass in real time, at first I thought that sucked, but after the first week or so you learn it's really not too hard to play in that time frame. Well, I can't think of anything more to write, I'm sure you will hear more about PonyBox from me later, hopefully I will get into the swing of things and will have a more entertaining blog, at least that's my goal.
http://www.ponybox.com/